The City of Lights, Love, and Dreams ( literally).

No I don't think about being with anyone else.

I think about being somewhere  else. 

I cheat on you every night, in my dreams with the city.

My dreams are always the same: 

                   I'm walking down the street with my Louis Vuitton speedy. I have a grande caramel macchiato in my hand and I am wearing the most fabulous Kate spade pumps. For the first time in a long time I am smiling. No, I am grinning. Then I'm laughing, and across the street I see a dark, brown haired woman wearing a very nice Gucci maxi dress. She approaches me. We hug and she asks me how my fashion show went last night. She is my best friend, I can just tell.

Then I wake up and I am in Wisconsin. My room is about 50 degrees and I am close to becoming hypodermic. Yes, I cheat every night with a city, where my dreams are, the place where I belong. 

My Musician Man and Me.

People ask me what love means,

and I never know what to say.

Love can mean so many different things,

and it may change from day to day.

You might think you love someone,

and then you realize you were wrong. 

It has happened to me before, 

but now I know where I belong.

The dictionary says love is warmth and affection, 

but really, there is no definition. 

Love is all feeling, happiness, smiles, tears, beauty,

and rhythm, performed by two musicians.  

Love is unanswered. 

I will never know why I feel the way I do for him.

But what I do know is that its love. It can be cold, romantic, and beautiful,

exactly like a late night swim. 

I love my musician man and me,

together we are two peas in a pod,

and after our symphony,

we shall receive an applaud.

~ Bridget Kidd

Dreams.

People say "God does everything for a reason", and I believe that. If God put me here for a reason, it's defiantly so I can spread my wings.  I belong somewhere that will make me smile, because that's the best kind of love, something that will be with you every day making you smile. Out of all my dreams, that no one but me cares about, that's my biggest one. To live in New York. To go for a run along the city people, to get a crappy cup of coffee along the side walk, and to smile every single day. I have two and a half years to go, and I plan to make the most of it, but that doesn't mean every second I wont be waiting to get out and spread my wings. Reality is fake, dreams are for real. 

Carrie Bradshaw: the most fabulous woman on television.

Almost the weekend....

Today is like a manicure, a hassle, but I need to get through it to get to beautiful tomorrow. 

The Little Black Dress Relationship.

Through my 16 years of life I have been in quite few relationships. I have had boyfriends, friends, and family members come and go,die, or fade away. I have also watched my friends go though extreme break ups with people they thought they would marry, get ditched by the person who they thought was their "bff", and even get bullied by what they thought was their closest group of friends. Throughout my experience and observations on relationships I know one things for a fact: they will be misleading, wonderful, possibly hot, and certainly a necessity. Almost identical to a little black dress that hangs in the back of every closet.

A little black dress, being one of the most common things owned by a girl can be crucial depending on the way you wear it. The accessories paired with it can make or break an entire event. For example, paired with a pair of cheap, 6 inch hooker heels a cute dress could go to being the most scandal's thing since President Clinton. A lot like how misleading and untrustworthy a relationship can be. One person looks at their ex and they are questioned. Or maybe one tiny rumor spreads about a couple making out in the back of their car and BAM they are known as the skanks. But not always, relationships can be wonderful. They are magical, make you giggle, and give you hope. I know that I couldn't go a day without my loved ones by my side. So is the simple ,but most important piece of clothing known to woman. The little black dress adds boldness, slimness, elegance, and over all wonder to a woman's wardrobe. Not to mention the appeal. Nothing can be hotter than a classy lady in a Gucci dress and Prada heels walking down the street. Exactly with a romantic relation. Hotness isn't always needed, but as long as you can pull it out of the "closet" once in a while he's a keeper. Not every dress can be perfect, sometimes there are flaws. It may not fit right, it could be worn out, to short, or the wrong shade. Those factors are much like the twists and turns of a relationship, not every single one can be perfect. But like any closet, you always need a little black dress.

Best compliment...
" You are very Audrey Hepburn."  

Resolution's to LOVE.

Today as I was vacuuming cheese dip out of my mothers car, ( long story) I heard a list of 25 New Year's Resolution's on the radio. A few of them were things such as " stop smoking", "stop swearing", "go to church every Sunday", and "lose 15 pounds". I realize that New Years is a time of rebirth, a time to start fresh and live what you think would be a better life. But why is it so self centered? Only 8% of people actually live out their New Years Resolution! Maybe, just maybe, if people made resolutions to help others, something might get accomplished.
 As I was freezing my butt off and thinking about this I realized I hadn't made a resolution yet. So here it is: This year, I am going to convince 3 people to love themselves the way they should. It breaks my heart when I hear my friends say they are fat, ugly, weird, or not good enough. Mostly, because I wish they could see what I see in them, someone wonderful. Everyone deserves to feel loved, but the best way is to start with themselves.

Ephesians 2:10

 For we are his workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God prepared beforehand, that we should walk in them.

Dreams.

"Every great dream begins with a dreamer," I just need to keep pushing through.